Here I am. Years later. A different person.
I live in South Beach, Miami, Florida. I have the most AMAZING boyfriend in the entire world and we've lived together for over 6 months now. His name is John Gottschall and I am going to marry that man, sooner rather than later. We have a little puppy named Chloe. I had 13 roommates and we were all best friends and now we aren't. We were called the Love Shack. I am signed with an amazing acting agent here in Miami and auditioning a lot. I start my new job Monday. I will be doing in-store informercials. I am happier than ever. I am moving with John to get our own place next month. I'm 25. I'm serious. I love everything about who I am and what I am doing. (Except for my weight, thats gotten a little too much..lol)
Otherwise...I am a completely different person then who I was down there. I am older, more mature, stronger. More confident. HAPPIER. Moving to Miami was the best thing I've ever done. I partially moved here for my ex-bf, Jake, partially bc I fell in love with the city and was looking to leave NYC anyhow. It's amazing how one thing can lead to another. If I never had Jake, I may never had met John. It's funny how the world works. I have fantastic friends. My sister is here.
Life is good.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Monday, September 29, 2008
"i don't believe you!" - "fuck you!"
danielles birthday shindig is tomorrow night. laruen and i are helping to throw it. can i tell you how damn excited we are for it? it's all lauren and i have been yappin about the past few days. i think its been a long, long time since we 3 chez hotte ladies got all pretty together and went out. we used to do it a lot, but now we are all so busy with school, work, boys and life...it rarely ever seems that the 3 of us can make time to all be together for a bit of fun. it's going to be a grand old night though. 4 years of playhouse folk, family members, boys old and new, friends from home and then some randoms here and there will all be around. its gonna be fantastic. i strive for nights like this...where all of my worlds and my best friends worlds can collide together as one. anything can happen on a night like that.
i love working. i mean, do i really love working? i dont know....but im trying to convince myself i do! i like the whole schedule, the 9-5. its easy work. the people are fun. it could be a thousand times worse. i have my nights free to do what i want. i joined a gym. ill be saving money for europe. ive started things with a new boy. a jew for once...YAY. i dont know what it is, but jews just know man, they just know. there is something different about dating a jew. im pretty freaking happy.
Everyone else uses "nicknames" when witing in blogs...I want to be cool too!...so the members of Chez Hotte are Belle and Cherub. Haha!
i terribly miss my playhouse friends. i never see them anymore. i want them back.
cherub has been going through the first year of playhouse the past few weeks. its been very interesting to listen to her recount her endless days of tortured souls, speech, dicks being slammed in a drawer and all the hook up gossip. i have to say, i do miss it. but its also hard listening to it. i feel as if when she talks about the playhouse, she is actually reciting to me what i did 2 years ago. i feel like ive heard the same stories, like none of its new. so its hard to hear, not that im bored of it...i just...KNOW already.
i repeated with her last night to help her out with school. holy shit it was fun. she's scared. i tried helping her. and i did which was cool...but i too was scared and all i wanted was for her to call me out on it..and she couldnt. ah with time, my friends...with time.
i love working. i mean, do i really love working? i dont know....but im trying to convince myself i do! i like the whole schedule, the 9-5. its easy work. the people are fun. it could be a thousand times worse. i have my nights free to do what i want. i joined a gym. ill be saving money for europe. ive started things with a new boy. a jew for once...YAY. i dont know what it is, but jews just know man, they just know. there is something different about dating a jew. im pretty freaking happy.
Everyone else uses "nicknames" when witing in blogs...I want to be cool too!...so the members of Chez Hotte are Belle and Cherub. Haha!
i terribly miss my playhouse friends. i never see them anymore. i want them back.
cherub has been going through the first year of playhouse the past few weeks. its been very interesting to listen to her recount her endless days of tortured souls, speech, dicks being slammed in a drawer and all the hook up gossip. i have to say, i do miss it. but its also hard listening to it. i feel as if when she talks about the playhouse, she is actually reciting to me what i did 2 years ago. i feel like ive heard the same stories, like none of its new. so its hard to hear, not that im bored of it...i just...KNOW already.
i repeated with her last night to help her out with school. holy shit it was fun. she's scared. i tried helping her. and i did which was cool...but i too was scared and all i wanted was for her to call me out on it..and she couldnt. ah with time, my friends...with time.
Friday, September 26, 2008
It's been awhile since...everything....
I'm sitting here at my 9 to 5 job, behind a big desk, in an empty, deserted room. I'm staring at the computer screen for my 6th hour straight. It feels like I'm staring into the endless depths of the deepest, darkest circle of hell. And yes, while bringing hell into the picture may sound a big dramatic, I feel that it that description was actually quite spot on...
My entire life I have always promised myself I would never take a desk job, that sitting around an office doing nothing all day is worse then selling my soul. So then please, PLEASE explain to me how I ended up here? Doing just that? At a silly ad agency in SoHo...doing nothing but answering the phone - more transferring a phone call - once an hour? I feel empty, useless...like a sellout.
Now one may wonder, why am I still doing this job then, if It feels so WRONG. Why? Because I need the money. Because I'm sick of waiting on tourists. Because I'm sick of staying out every night til 3-4-5am and sleeping until 2pm the next day. Because I want free nights so I can have a dinner with a friend, go on a date, be a normal adult.
Basically, overall, I'm doing this so it is something steady that will get my lazy ass up in the morning. On Oct. 6th, I tranfer over to the HR dept. at the Marriot Courtyard Hotel by my apartment on 40th and Broadway. It's a 3 month long commitment. At the end of the job, I plan on leaving the country to go travel the world.
I'm very happy I get to stay here for the holidays. So many of my closest friends have birthdays over the next 3 months so it'll be good to be here for that too. Also, I just love Thanksgiving, Rosh Hashana, Chanukah, New Years...just he whole month of December in NYC is so gorgeous. It'll be good to be here for it.
But then, in January...I plan on going off into the world again. I traveled all summer long. I went to Seattle, Alaska, Vancouver and Victoria, then to Israel and then back to the US to go to LAS VEGAS! Quite the adventure filled summer, I must say! I really got addicted to traveling again and realized that right now, my heart lies on the open road.
I've had a plan to write a book, which the details I can not disclose here, (ask me in person and I may tell you) but I still have every intention of trying to either get sponsered to write it and travel the world, or just to travel the world on my own time and write it during. I'm figuring I won't get sponsered, hence me working now to save up money to get a plane ticket.
I plan on maybe flying into Berlin. Stay there for a bit, get a job (I think I have a good connection.) Then travel Europe a bit. Greece. Turkey. Austria. I want to go to India. I also HAVE to hit Israel and Egypt. Honestly? Who knows. I have no idea how I'm going to do this. But thats what I love about it all.
It's what I did last year. Left my life and went out into the world. It's been almost a year since I went on my Big Grand European Adventure...a YEAR. WHAT THE HELL. Time has just flown by. Now that that crazy chapter in my life is over, I am able to look back and reflect on it all. I did not really get to finsih exactly what I had set out to do. Well, let me rephrase that, I did finish what I had to do in that moment...but not overall. I had too much going on here at home that I had to take care of first. But I took care of it all...with flying fucking colors....and I'm ready to get back out there in the world and meet new people, have new adventures...go crazy.
So here I am, once again! Writing in my silly little blog. I'll be using this as my journal about my pre-world traveling adventures. I'll write what I'm doing to get there and whats going on with me thats keeping me still here. i promose to not be so self obsessed this go around. I promise to not talk about all tht stupid bullshit of "omg I'm so much better now" - UCH. I just want to relfect. To put my thoughts down. No more ME ME ME ME. I mean, a bit of it...haha...but not as much.
Ciao for now!!
My entire life I have always promised myself I would never take a desk job, that sitting around an office doing nothing all day is worse then selling my soul. So then please, PLEASE explain to me how I ended up here? Doing just that? At a silly ad agency in SoHo...doing nothing but answering the phone - more transferring a phone call - once an hour? I feel empty, useless...like a sellout.
Now one may wonder, why am I still doing this job then, if It feels so WRONG. Why? Because I need the money. Because I'm sick of waiting on tourists. Because I'm sick of staying out every night til 3-4-5am and sleeping until 2pm the next day. Because I want free nights so I can have a dinner with a friend, go on a date, be a normal adult.
Basically, overall, I'm doing this so it is something steady that will get my lazy ass up in the morning. On Oct. 6th, I tranfer over to the HR dept. at the Marriot Courtyard Hotel by my apartment on 40th and Broadway. It's a 3 month long commitment. At the end of the job, I plan on leaving the country to go travel the world.
I'm very happy I get to stay here for the holidays. So many of my closest friends have birthdays over the next 3 months so it'll be good to be here for that too. Also, I just love Thanksgiving, Rosh Hashana, Chanukah, New Years...just he whole month of December in NYC is so gorgeous. It'll be good to be here for it.
But then, in January...I plan on going off into the world again. I traveled all summer long. I went to Seattle, Alaska, Vancouver and Victoria, then to Israel and then back to the US to go to LAS VEGAS! Quite the adventure filled summer, I must say! I really got addicted to traveling again and realized that right now, my heart lies on the open road.
I've had a plan to write a book, which the details I can not disclose here, (ask me in person and I may tell you) but I still have every intention of trying to either get sponsered to write it and travel the world, or just to travel the world on my own time and write it during. I'm figuring I won't get sponsered, hence me working now to save up money to get a plane ticket.
I plan on maybe flying into Berlin. Stay there for a bit, get a job (I think I have a good connection.) Then travel Europe a bit. Greece. Turkey. Austria. I want to go to India. I also HAVE to hit Israel and Egypt. Honestly? Who knows. I have no idea how I'm going to do this. But thats what I love about it all.
It's what I did last year. Left my life and went out into the world. It's been almost a year since I went on my Big Grand European Adventure...a YEAR. WHAT THE HELL. Time has just flown by. Now that that crazy chapter in my life is over, I am able to look back and reflect on it all. I did not really get to finsih exactly what I had set out to do. Well, let me rephrase that, I did finish what I had to do in that moment...but not overall. I had too much going on here at home that I had to take care of first. But I took care of it all...with flying fucking colors....and I'm ready to get back out there in the world and meet new people, have new adventures...go crazy.
So here I am, once again! Writing in my silly little blog. I'll be using this as my journal about my pre-world traveling adventures. I'll write what I'm doing to get there and whats going on with me thats keeping me still here. i promose to not be so self obsessed this go around. I promise to not talk about all tht stupid bullshit of "omg I'm so much better now" - UCH. I just want to relfect. To put my thoughts down. No more ME ME ME ME. I mean, a bit of it...haha...but not as much.
Ciao for now!!
Friday, November 16, 2007
im back and ready for action
im home.
yep. i did it. very out of the blue, decided to just end my trip and come home. it wasnt because i was scared, lonely, bored, anything of the sort. I went there to accomplish something...and I did. I did everything I needed to do. I read, wrote, learned, partied, got my head on straight, did something on my own, made myself happy and feel good. so i felt like it was time to use all that and apply it to my real life. it was just time to come home. and now that i am here, alone, in my apartment...i feel amazing. im so happy to be here. ive been very productive! working out, 6 job interviews lined up, auditions, plans. it's exciting. its a new chapter in my life.
i was scared of what others would say when i came home early. but now, after talking to some friends, they see the difference in me. they see that i am ME again, the old me, the me that hasnt been around in months. not the depressed, stuck in a rut lindsay that was here before. it feels so good to have others recognize that and admit it to me. i feel great. im taking every day as it comes. i have nothing, i have no job, no relationship, no career, no money. and i love it. im starting from scratch. i have the whole world at my finger tips. i can do whatever i want, whenever i want. i can make everything happen for me...and that is SOOO thrilling to think about.
james brown says it best...I FEEL GOOD
alanis morissette also says it veeerrry well
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I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab - Alanis Morissettte
yep. i did it. very out of the blue, decided to just end my trip and come home. it wasnt because i was scared, lonely, bored, anything of the sort. I went there to accomplish something...and I did. I did everything I needed to do. I read, wrote, learned, partied, got my head on straight, did something on my own, made myself happy and feel good. so i felt like it was time to use all that and apply it to my real life. it was just time to come home. and now that i am here, alone, in my apartment...i feel amazing. im so happy to be here. ive been very productive! working out, 6 job interviews lined up, auditions, plans. it's exciting. its a new chapter in my life.
i was scared of what others would say when i came home early. but now, after talking to some friends, they see the difference in me. they see that i am ME again, the old me, the me that hasnt been around in months. not the depressed, stuck in a rut lindsay that was here before. it feels so good to have others recognize that and admit it to me. i feel great. im taking every day as it comes. i have nothing, i have no job, no relationship, no career, no money. and i love it. im starting from scratch. i have the whole world at my finger tips. i can do whatever i want, whenever i want. i can make everything happen for me...and that is SOOO thrilling to think about.
james brown says it best...I FEEL GOOD
alanis morissette also says it veeerrry well
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I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby
And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab - Alanis Morissettte
Saturday, November 10, 2007
oy jeez im pooped!
i am exhausted! im still here in good ol´ barcelona, 130 am, at my hostel. I didnt go out tonight. Just stayed in, cooked dinner with a few new friends and watched Lord of the Rings 1 with a bunch of people haha. So cheesy. But I needed a night of rest, especially after last night!
Yesterday was amazing. I met Paddy, my friend from Prague, around 1pm. We walked by the water of Barcelona, walked up and down the main street La Rambla, went to a market (where I saw lots of goats heads for sale...EW) and took a boat trip! It went up and down the coast on the ocean, so I got to see all of Barcelona! It was GORGEOUS. The pictures will be up soon! Paddy and I just had a blast exchanging travel stories and hanging out. Hes such a wonderful person. On La Rambla, they sell live animals, have live performers and lots of food and shops. It is the cutest place ever. Laying in the sunshine on the ocean was AMAZING. Exactly what I needed!
So after our busy day, we went for dinner and to his hostel. Met a bunch of Paddys friends and we about 20 of us went to a bar. I met another blonde, pasty Lindsay and we took control. It was such a feet trying to get everyone to stick together hahah. But we made it and around 130am, we all decided to go to a club! It was a long and exiting journey to the club! This place, called Rattmatazz, holds up to 5000 people apparently! It was gigantic! Played 80s music, bad British music and pop American. We all just got very drunk an danced the night away! I havent gone that crazy in a long time. There were platforms that the other Lindsay and I danced on and we just had sooooo much fun. We danced till 6am!!! That place is also a concert hall! Spoon is playing in a over the next few weeks...so is Diplo! SOOO sad that Im prob missing those concerts! Oh well!
So yeah, the 20 of us partied hard and had fun. Wasnt very drunk which was great, I was able to keep composure while still dancing hardcore. After a late night/early morning Burger King run, I got into my bed around 730. Its been years since I went to bed that late! It also reminded me of why I DONT party like that very often. Im exhausted today...it was too much. But fun all the same. You only live once!
So today I went to lunch with a friend from this hostel and then went up the HUGE mountain looking over Barcelona. Then to the Guidi (I think thats how its spelled) Park. Its this famous guy who did lots of Architechture around Spain, they gave him this park to do whatever he wanted with it...and he did mosaic on the WHOLE thing. It also gave me a 360 view of Barcelona and the Ocean. SOOOO AMAZING. One of teh best things Ive ever seen! It was cold, but very sunny! Tonight, as said earlier, just dinner and a movie. Perfect. Who knows what tomorrow will bring! As of right now, I am loving this holiday. Its the best thing Ive ever done and I dont regret one minute of it!!! YAY! Missing my sister a bunch. And my girls. And my puppies haha. I really want to DANCE. Act. OMG ballet I miss you.
Yesterday was amazing. I met Paddy, my friend from Prague, around 1pm. We walked by the water of Barcelona, walked up and down the main street La Rambla, went to a market (where I saw lots of goats heads for sale...EW) and took a boat trip! It went up and down the coast on the ocean, so I got to see all of Barcelona! It was GORGEOUS. The pictures will be up soon! Paddy and I just had a blast exchanging travel stories and hanging out. Hes such a wonderful person. On La Rambla, they sell live animals, have live performers and lots of food and shops. It is the cutest place ever. Laying in the sunshine on the ocean was AMAZING. Exactly what I needed!
So after our busy day, we went for dinner and to his hostel. Met a bunch of Paddys friends and we about 20 of us went to a bar. I met another blonde, pasty Lindsay and we took control. It was such a feet trying to get everyone to stick together hahah. But we made it and around 130am, we all decided to go to a club! It was a long and exiting journey to the club! This place, called Rattmatazz, holds up to 5000 people apparently! It was gigantic! Played 80s music, bad British music and pop American. We all just got very drunk an danced the night away! I havent gone that crazy in a long time. There were platforms that the other Lindsay and I danced on and we just had sooooo much fun. We danced till 6am!!! That place is also a concert hall! Spoon is playing in a over the next few weeks...so is Diplo! SOOO sad that Im prob missing those concerts! Oh well!
So yeah, the 20 of us partied hard and had fun. Wasnt very drunk which was great, I was able to keep composure while still dancing hardcore. After a late night/early morning Burger King run, I got into my bed around 730. Its been years since I went to bed that late! It also reminded me of why I DONT party like that very often. Im exhausted today...it was too much. But fun all the same. You only live once!
So today I went to lunch with a friend from this hostel and then went up the HUGE mountain looking over Barcelona. Then to the Guidi (I think thats how its spelled) Park. Its this famous guy who did lots of Architechture around Spain, they gave him this park to do whatever he wanted with it...and he did mosaic on the WHOLE thing. It also gave me a 360 view of Barcelona and the Ocean. SOOOO AMAZING. One of teh best things Ive ever seen! It was cold, but very sunny! Tonight, as said earlier, just dinner and a movie. Perfect. Who knows what tomorrow will bring! As of right now, I am loving this holiday. Its the best thing Ive ever done and I dont regret one minute of it!!! YAY! Missing my sister a bunch. And my girls. And my puppies haha. I really want to DANCE. Act. OMG ballet I miss you.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
im leaving a family behind
just got in to barcelona!!! hooray for spain! i´m very happy, i atleast somewhat know the language here. much better than italy or czech rep. anyhow! immediately my spanish started to return to me. hopefully ill get much better by the end of this trip! this hostel is so weird though, especially compared to my last one...Chianti. Its really far out of the center part of town, pretty quiet and deserted. and everyones just, relaxing! no partying! its nice, for once! im sure ill find something to do tomorrow though heh.
its amazing how already i miss my chianti family. i went back there from florence yesterday and spent last night and today hanging out with my friends. its really quite remarkable how 6 people from such different backgrounds were able to come together and create such a bond, such a family. i really miss them already, things arent as much fun without those kids around. ah, oh well...i guess thats the beauty and the horror of traveling. making new friends...then losing them. but i actually do think these friends will be life long, as strange as that sounds...but we DID spend 2 weeks straight together having a blast!
one thing i didnt understand was...where were all the hot italian men? seriously! i mean i wasnt like searching hard core, but even on the street i never saw one. only hot women. thats not right hahah!! oh well. somehow, i think ill survive heh. oh! so barcelona!! i walked off teh plane and it was sooo much colder than in rome!! i thought it was supposed to be warm here...whats going on? ah! and last night, lorenzo...the hostel owner of Chianti in Rome, took me on his scooter!!!!!
First, let me explain that Lorenzo is bascially my crazy Italian uncle I never had. He adopted the 6 of us bascially into his family while we were in Italy, and took a particular liking to me. We cooked, drank, all hung out. Hes like 45 with kids and just the sweetest most wonderful person. So we all went to a bar last night after wating Team America..of course....and I told Lorenzo I was sad! I wanted an Italian man to sweep me off my feet and whisk me away on his scooter...and it didnt happen! So he said, to make me happy, he would drive me the 4 blocks home hahahaha and he did! So it wasnt the whole romantic shpeal I dreamt of...it was better! With my crazy Italian uncle, me half drunk whizzing away down the streets of Rome!! It was so liberating, so free! I want one now haha. I thought I was going to die half the time, but thats the fun of it!
Now looking back at Florence, I wish I had seen more sites. It was just so hard, since we all had major colds, 3 of us with the chicken pox, and way too much drinking...i think we needed a bit of rest. Oh well. I plan on going crazy with seeing all the sites here in Spain. I dont have my party friends to distract me!
As I flew from Rome to Barcelona tonight, I thought of home the entire time. Of how I missed it, of how amazing it really is. Im very excited to return someday, still dont know when...but I just know things will be a billion times better than they were, in every way. Because I have changed, me as a person and my views on life. Im excited to see how others take to it! Everyone I meet on this trip is either from Australia or Canada. Where are the Swiss? Germans? Italians? Anyone? Hehe.
Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad! I miss you and love you and wish I could be there celebrating it with you!!! XOXOXO
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Free As A Bird,
It's the next best thing to be free as a bird.
Home, home and dry
Like a homing bird I fly, as a bird on wings
Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Can we really live without each other
Where did we lose the touch
That seemed to mean so much
It always made me feel so
Free as a bird,
It's the next best thing to being free as a bird.
Home home and dry
Like a homing bird I fly--a bird on wing
Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Always made me feel soooo
Free
its amazing how already i miss my chianti family. i went back there from florence yesterday and spent last night and today hanging out with my friends. its really quite remarkable how 6 people from such different backgrounds were able to come together and create such a bond, such a family. i really miss them already, things arent as much fun without those kids around. ah, oh well...i guess thats the beauty and the horror of traveling. making new friends...then losing them. but i actually do think these friends will be life long, as strange as that sounds...but we DID spend 2 weeks straight together having a blast!
one thing i didnt understand was...where were all the hot italian men? seriously! i mean i wasnt like searching hard core, but even on the street i never saw one. only hot women. thats not right hahah!! oh well. somehow, i think ill survive heh. oh! so barcelona!! i walked off teh plane and it was sooo much colder than in rome!! i thought it was supposed to be warm here...whats going on? ah! and last night, lorenzo...the hostel owner of Chianti in Rome, took me on his scooter!!!!!
First, let me explain that Lorenzo is bascially my crazy Italian uncle I never had. He adopted the 6 of us bascially into his family while we were in Italy, and took a particular liking to me. We cooked, drank, all hung out. Hes like 45 with kids and just the sweetest most wonderful person. So we all went to a bar last night after wating Team America..of course....and I told Lorenzo I was sad! I wanted an Italian man to sweep me off my feet and whisk me away on his scooter...and it didnt happen! So he said, to make me happy, he would drive me the 4 blocks home hahahaha and he did! So it wasnt the whole romantic shpeal I dreamt of...it was better! With my crazy Italian uncle, me half drunk whizzing away down the streets of Rome!! It was so liberating, so free! I want one now haha. I thought I was going to die half the time, but thats the fun of it!
Now looking back at Florence, I wish I had seen more sites. It was just so hard, since we all had major colds, 3 of us with the chicken pox, and way too much drinking...i think we needed a bit of rest. Oh well. I plan on going crazy with seeing all the sites here in Spain. I dont have my party friends to distract me!
As I flew from Rome to Barcelona tonight, I thought of home the entire time. Of how I missed it, of how amazing it really is. Im very excited to return someday, still dont know when...but I just know things will be a billion times better than they were, in every way. Because I have changed, me as a person and my views on life. Im excited to see how others take to it! Everyone I meet on this trip is either from Australia or Canada. Where are the Swiss? Germans? Italians? Anyone? Hehe.
Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad! I miss you and love you and wish I could be there celebrating it with you!!! XOXOXO
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Free As A Bird,
It's the next best thing to be free as a bird.
Home, home and dry
Like a homing bird I fly, as a bird on wings
Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Can we really live without each other
Where did we lose the touch
That seemed to mean so much
It always made me feel so
Free as a bird,
It's the next best thing to being free as a bird.
Home home and dry
Like a homing bird I fly--a bird on wing
Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Always made me feel soooo
Free
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
where to go from here?
So yesterday my frinends and I sat around thinking...what should we all do next? Amsterdam? Berlin? CAIRO? I got very excited at that idea...but we decided that it wouldnt work heh. Then we really discussed it all..got serious. Money, meeting friends...etc. We are going to have to break up and go ont he rest of our trips seperately for the most part. The couple have to go to Budapest in 2 days to meet a friend. Another guy has to go to Croatia. The liverpool guy needs to go back to Rome. So, I figure...well I might as well move on to Barcelona, like I was suppposed to!
My friend Paddy will be there in a day or two and our new friend from Wash DC we met here in Florence is going in a day or two also...so atleast I can hang out with them. But itll be good for me to be completely on my own for a bit too. Its been a few days or insanity. I am loving all of this, having the time of my life...i can just feel it getting a bit old. So I need to change my scenery and do something different! Liven it up a bit. Its getting colder here too. Barcelona will be nice!
The shopping here is incredible, I am just so angry I cant really buy anything because of how expensive and big it all is! Damn backpacking.
This is the first time I am not sure what to write. We havent done that much here in Florence. Went to teh Uffizi, saw the David, the Duomo, walked around a lot...but thats it. ITs been more just hanging out which is nice. Relaxing too. I just dont like the idea again of me not knowing exactly what I am doing next. It used to be the fun of it, now its a bit annoying..but still fun heh. Whatever, I am sure something great and exciting will happen...and Ill have fun. I really miss home and people still, of course...but its getting better. Actually, Its not that its getting better really, im just getting numb to it or learning to deal with it better. So thats good. But its still hard.
Think we are going back to Rome tomorrow morning than we all split up in our different ways. Ill miss these kids, we really bonded and had a lot of fun. I hope we all meet again. Its good for people to meet again in life. a lot of these party nights i just wish i could be home in ny in my bed curled up cuddling watching a movie. i miss that and boy, was it nice. much better than the partying. oh well. this is good too.
i want to watch moulin rouge.
My friend Paddy will be there in a day or two and our new friend from Wash DC we met here in Florence is going in a day or two also...so atleast I can hang out with them. But itll be good for me to be completely on my own for a bit too. Its been a few days or insanity. I am loving all of this, having the time of my life...i can just feel it getting a bit old. So I need to change my scenery and do something different! Liven it up a bit. Its getting colder here too. Barcelona will be nice!
The shopping here is incredible, I am just so angry I cant really buy anything because of how expensive and big it all is! Damn backpacking.
This is the first time I am not sure what to write. We havent done that much here in Florence. Went to teh Uffizi, saw the David, the Duomo, walked around a lot...but thats it. ITs been more just hanging out which is nice. Relaxing too. I just dont like the idea again of me not knowing exactly what I am doing next. It used to be the fun of it, now its a bit annoying..but still fun heh. Whatever, I am sure something great and exciting will happen...and Ill have fun. I really miss home and people still, of course...but its getting better. Actually, Its not that its getting better really, im just getting numb to it or learning to deal with it better. So thats good. But its still hard.
Think we are going back to Rome tomorrow morning than we all split up in our different ways. Ill miss these kids, we really bonded and had a lot of fun. I hope we all meet again. Its good for people to meet again in life. a lot of these party nights i just wish i could be home in ny in my bed curled up cuddling watching a movie. i miss that and boy, was it nice. much better than the partying. oh well. this is good too.
i want to watch moulin rouge.
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