It's been awhile since...everything....

I'm sitting here at my 9 to 5 job, behind a big desk, in an empty, deserted room. I'm staring at the computer screen for my 6th hour straight. It feels like I'm staring into the endless depths of the deepest, darkest circle of hell. And yes, while bringing hell into the picture may sound a big dramatic, I feel that it that description was actually quite spot on...

My entire life I have always promised myself I would never take a desk job, that sitting around an office doing nothing all day is worse then selling my soul. So then please, PLEASE explain to me how I ended up here? Doing just that? At a silly ad agency in SoHo...doing nothing but answering the phone - more transferring a phone call - once an hour? I feel empty, useless...like a sellout.

Now one may wonder, why am I still doing this job then, if It feels so WRONG. Why? Because I need the money. Because I'm sick of waiting on tourists. Because I'm sick of staying out every night til 3-4-5am and sleeping until 2pm the next day. Because I want free nights so I can have a dinner with a friend, go on a date, be a normal adult.

Basically, overall, I'm doing this so it is something steady that will get my lazy ass up in the morning. On Oct. 6th, I tranfer over to the HR dept. at the Marriot Courtyard Hotel by my apartment on 40th and Broadway. It's a 3 month long commitment. At the end of the job, I plan on leaving the country to go travel the world.

I'm very happy I get to stay here for the holidays. So many of my closest friends have birthdays over the next 3 months so it'll be good to be here for that too. Also, I just love Thanksgiving, Rosh Hashana, Chanukah, New Years...just he whole month of December in NYC is so gorgeous. It'll be good to be here for it.

But then, in January...I plan on going off into the world again. I traveled all summer long. I went to Seattle, Alaska, Vancouver and Victoria, then to Israel and then back to the US to go to LAS VEGAS! Quite the adventure filled summer, I must say! I really got addicted to traveling again and realized that right now, my heart lies on the open road.

I've had a plan to write a book, which the details I can not disclose here, (ask me in person and I may tell you) but I still have every intention of trying to either get sponsered to write it and travel the world, or just to travel the world on my own time and write it during. I'm figuring I won't get sponsered, hence me working now to save up money to get a plane ticket.

I plan on maybe flying into Berlin. Stay there for a bit, get a job (I think I have a good connection.) Then travel Europe a bit. Greece. Turkey. Austria. I want to go to India. I also HAVE to hit Israel and Egypt. Honestly? Who knows. I have no idea how I'm going to do this. But thats what I love about it all.

It's what I did last year. Left my life and went out into the world. It's been almost a year since I went on my Big Grand European Adventure...a YEAR. WHAT THE HELL. Time has just flown by. Now that that crazy chapter in my life is over, I am able to look back and reflect on it all. I did not really get to finsih exactly what I had set out to do. Well, let me rephrase that, I did finish what I had to do in that moment...but not overall. I had too much going on here at home that I had to take care of first. But I took care of it all...with flying fucking colors....and I'm ready to get back out there in the world and meet new people, have new adventures...go crazy.

So here I am, once again! Writing in my silly little blog. I'll be using this as my journal about my pre-world traveling adventures. I'll write what I'm doing to get there and whats going on with me thats keeping me still here. i promose to not be so self obsessed this go around. I promise to not talk about all tht stupid bullshit of "omg I'm so much better now" - UCH. I just want to relfect. To put my thoughts down. No more ME ME ME ME. I mean, a bit of it...haha...but not as much.

Ciao for now!!