Relaxation? I think not!

Funny. Today is my first day off, where I have NO commitments or responsibilities whatsoever in MONTHS. MONTHS! And all I want to do is clean my apartment, work on my career and be productive in so many other ways. Will I ever let myself relax? Do nothing? No. There is too much to be done right now. Although, it does sound intriguing. Sitting around, doing nothing but watching bad cheesy movies, surfing the net, working on my websites, creating jewelry. Sounds nice. Wish I had time for that.

My Great Aunt passed away yesterday. She had cancer, so we knew it was just a matter of time. Our family was very close, so I am extremely upset. I swear, these days they are just dropping like flies. My family is getting smaller and smaller. I barely cried. Not out of denial, or not being sad or anything of the sort. Just because, I feel like I am getting numb to it all. There are so many sick people in my family. There have been so many deaths the past couple of years. It all just seems natural at this point. Now that Rhoda is gone, it is totally possible that her husband, Arthur will go in a few weeks. It seems that happens a lot in life long relationships. That you can't live without the other. It's strange, but I find those types of things amazing.

Not being able to live, to survive without your spouse. Your other half. I think that's how Logan and I will be someday. He really is my other half, my soul mate. It's crazy, but I couldn't imagine living life without him.

Ok, time to go clean my room. I am already 22 minutes behind on my cleaning schedule for the day. Oy jeez.