i finally did it. i gave in.

I have had many blogs over the past 10 years. I gave it up a few years ago for certain personal reasons, and told myself I would never create one like this again. But I find typing much easier and faster than writing in my regular journal. And because of that and the fact that I barely have any time to even breathe anymore...I figure this could be the best solution to how I can get my thoughts out of my head....for the moment.


I am here, sitting in the 4th floor lounge at school. I have been here since 8:30am...and will be here for another hour and a half...waiting for my partners to show up so we can rehearse. It's amazing, I dread coming to this school sometimes. I just want to be home, in bed, watching movies, out exploring the city...anywhere but here. But then I get here, and it sucks me in. I never want to leave. I want to giggle and learn and act and be with my friends here forever. But forever is over in about a week. Classes end in one week, ONE. No more Pinter. No more Ramsey. No more lunch breaks with my boyfriend. No more sitting in the basement making fun of people and laughing with my friends until it hurts. No more trying to memorize a billion things for 8 billion classes. No more Playhouse. Weird. I haven't really thought about it much, or let it hit me yet...much. But man, this is it. The final stretch. Then I am done. Out of school forever. On my own. The real world. Being an adult. WHAT!?!?

Holy shit, I am scared.